Christianity - The Easy Way Out - who are you kidding

I like many others went to Sunday school until I hit my rebellious teens. I knew about church, God and Jesus but I wasn't really interested until I became a single parent. I became a Christian when I was fully aware of all the facts and evidence of Jesus' existence and his ministry. Therefore, you could say that I was a doubting Thomas.

Somebody once said to me whilst I was at university, "You're studying sciences, you a Christian, Science and Christianity, anyway I thought all Christians took the easy way out when it comes to living". I took this thought away with me.

After dwelling on the statement I started to read and listen to some testimonies. Everyone I read and heard were becoming too stereotypical, "I became a Christian when I had this problem and the Lord helped me with this….." etc. There was very little I could identify with them and I then became disillusioned with it all because nobody seemed to be struggling with Christianity like I was. Everybody seemed to be having it easy and facing no difficulties. I started to ask a few questions around the church people I knew, but no one seemed to have the right answers, or was told I ought get involved more, but when I tried to get more involved, I was either told we have enough help thanks or do you think this is for you. Then I was starting to feel rejected by the church and by God. Also, at this time I joined the Christian Union at University, I thought this it, new people and they will all be on the same wavelength as me. How saddening as I was when I found out that I was the oldest one there (I was even older than the chaplain), so again I felt rejected, as I didn't fit in no matter how hard I tried.

I felt the only thing to do was to cut myself from church. What I was really doing was running away from church, God and Jesus. I had to sort myself out and learn to take bigger steps of faith especially after I read these couple of quotes: - "As long as we think we can save ourselves by our own will power, we will only make the evil in us stronger than ever" HEINI ARNOLD.

"Everybody thinks of changing humanity and the world and nobody thinks of changing himself" LEO TOLSTOY. (Italics mine)

Every time I felt I was getting closer to our Lord he would issue me with further tests of faith. There was the time when my dear Grandma passed away, Hannah left home to be with her Mum, finding out Hannah was pregnant, not to mention dealing with my own disabilities. I remember the Vicar telling me to read the book of Job. I thought I had it difficult.

I thank the Lord everyday for his grace, which enables me to carry on, and I thank him for my blessings too: Belinda, Chloe, Hannah and Katie

Christianity, the easy way out; who are you kidding.